"Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today."

Just got to warn you before you read any further.. this blog makes no sense, none what so ever. So stop reading, I would if I was you.

Anyway, hi.
A lot is going on in my life right now that is making me think and reflect upon everything around me. This year I had the new years resolution that I would take any opportunity I got offered, despite how scary or daunting this may seem. Unlike a lot of people, I love change and doing "random" things that are way out of my comfort zone- and thinking about this resolution I set it make me think- maybe I'm already following this..

To me, my life is normal.. like an average 19 year olds. But according to everyone else.. it apparently isn't. When I think about it; compared to other people my age (those that didn't go to uni) things are a little different for me, and no, I'm not talking about the fact I don't have a child and 80% of the girls in my year are popping their 9th out. From about 8 years old I had my life planned out, all different career idea's but different ways of getting there. It wasn't until I had to make a decision that I scrapped every idea i'd ever had. I can't believe how much my life has changed since high school.

The first thing I did that was a little strange was audition to be a performer at Disneyland Paris whilst I was still at Sixth Form, which was a bit strange because in my head I was going to university in Newcastle but I thought I'd do something a bit random, not thinking I'd get into Disney. Maybe in the back of my head I knew university wasn't for me, but yet I accepted my place and finally a month before going, I accepted I could not stand another day of education
So September came and my friends all went off to university across the country and I got a call, not from Disney but from PGL - Isle of Wight. Not quite as far oversea's that I would have hoped for but none the less I couldn't wait another day of wondering "what next" so took it. Did I mention I was to move the next day? So less than 24 hours and I packed and said my goodbyes. And I'm not gonna dwell on PGL as I've said many times how amazing it was.

Then when I sadly returned I did something a little unusual for me and turned "normal"- got office job in Leeds and living at home with the parents, again (joy!). I like this job, don't get me wrong. But is it really doing something crazy? Not at all. My mates are living it up at uni and I'm sat at a desk preying for the weekend. Not happening..

So this leads to my latest adventure. In 2 weeks I move to London, according to many - I already live there. Whenever I see anyone I haven't seen in a while they're asking, "why aren't you in London?" - yeah good joke. Isn't facebook a marvelleous thing for keeping everyone updated?
So I'm going to be an Au Pair.. people say this is weird because I hate kids. But there seems to be a common ground and maybe I don't hate kids as much as people think. I know London isn't far so I didn't even think about my decision, it all happened in about a week but as I got to telling everyone I was going it made me realise how many people I have here in Leeds that I love- I'll miss you all! (Pff, like they're gonna be reading this.)

I got reminded of this tonight, that I wrote 8 months ago -

"I can go to London more and that thought makes me happy. I will live there in a few years, after uni obviously."

Amazing how things change. Well Lucy, you're gonna be there a lot sooner. I'm very lucky to have some amazing friends in London and can't wait to spend more time with these people. This is the point i'm meant to be affectionate, but everyone knows I'm shit at that. So you all know who you are down there and I love you all - a lot. Even if I don't say it.
I've been rethinking my decision a lot because of certain individuals trying to peer pressure me into doing things elsewhere. But no, I made this decision and I'm sticking to it. I'm 19 and got the rest of my life to do other things! No further thoughts apart from, when I'm done with this.. what's next?

Any random idea's are welcome. I'm thinking America or Australia. Bring on 2013. Who's coming?

(Ps. Told you there was no point to this. If you've read up to here, you're an idiot)

“Life’s too short to waste time on pretense. Laugh, be merry, and enjoy life the way you want to.”